When Chasing Your Dream Means Sacrificing Everything Else
This year was a big one. This was the year that I decided to stop everything and chase after a vision - a dream I had at 23, and managed to put off for SIX YEARS. Six years that I spent wondering when it would happen. IF it would happen. Six years that I spent making excuses. I don't have the time. I don't have the money. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. But this magical year, this year I threw caution to the wind and went for it. And you know what? I don't have the time. I don't have the money. And I don't know what I'm doing.
Before I took this huge leap, I told myself I'm ready. Ready to sacrifice my every comfort for this vision. Ready to live anywhere, as long as it's cheap. Ready to work anywhere, as long as I have time to create. Ready to stop going out. Stop buying new anything. Stop. Everything. Ready to chase the dream.
I don't know if anyone has ever been ready for that.
But you know that thing about gaining the world and losing your soul? I'll call this the year I lost the world and gained my soul. The year I spent in the trenches and found myself again. It hasn't been easy, that's for certain. I can tell you now that I understand why people don't make it. Why they get half way there and decide it's not worth the effort. If you only knew the tears I've cried, the anxiety, and stress induced ailments... but you know what? I haven't once thought of giving it up. When you start to do what you know you were made for, nothing can stop you.
More specifically, when you start to do what you know you were made for, AND you have the support of your friends and family, nothing can stop you. I'm pretty sure it's impossible without your people. (You guys, my parents paid my cell phone bill ALL YEAR. Yeah, I lost everything, including any shred of pride and self-reliance I once had.)
In my very first blog post here, I looked ahead at 2017 and believed that God would do more than I could ask or imagine, and let me tell you. He has. They weren't the things I was expecting. I didn't leave 2017 a married woman, or a well known singer, or a Bumble queen. I'm leaving as a woman who remembered who she is. As a daughter who has to do exactly nothing to impress her Father. Who gets to work with Him because we love to be together, not because there's work to do. It has been the most devastating and the most rewarding. The most humbling and the most empowering. The most everything. It has been full.
So here's your homework. There's one month left in 2017. #1) Make the most of it. #2) Prepare yourself to give up everything. January 1, 2018. What has God been calling you to for years? What's the thing that you know you're made for, but don't think you're ready? YOU WILL NEVER BE READY. Write it down. Tell your people. Take the leap. Trust me, it'll be so worth it.